Finally back in business and inspired to the brim. Sometimes changes, whether we want them or not, push us in new directions.
Zoo1 (20 x 30 cm)
This week, I've been working on two series, Zoo1 and Zoo2. Small canvas' with acrylic and spray paint, shaping motives by drawing the colors and materials into weird shapes and sizes. It's a time consuming process, but never the less it's so much fun. More of these will certainly follow. You can check them out on my FB-page to read more details on their title etc.
Things have been very quiet in the studio these past three weeks. Due to a painter's block which I think originated in some serious changes in my personal life, I had no desire to pick up a brush. Until today. It occurred to me how this event had actually dragged me down emotionally, when I returned to priming canvas' and getting on with the painting, I left so long ago. I felt guilty for having left the studio with no wish to return.
A series of 20x20cm canvas'...
As I was working today, I contemplated on the simpleness in priming the canvas' that I'm going to work on next. Planning the series of small paintings. I like the white surfaces on which the uncertain will appear soon enough. I like the utter blankness and not feeling any sort of pressure to apply colors, textures or anything at all.
Christmas is upon us. This year my children are celebrating it with me and my parents here in our small flat. The tree is being collected tomorrow. I know we'll have a brilliant time all of us, but I have made no preparations what so ever yet. In Denmark we have Christmas dinner on the 24th of December in the evening, after which most people dance around the tree and sing a few carols. Then we open presents and have a peaceful evening.
I know life goes up and down. Sometimes you lose motivation, but trust it to come back. Your brain works out for you how to get on. All the love and togetherness in our lives make out the glue that holds us together. Our emotions and melancholy can bring us down when losing sight of what seemed to be within reach. Trust your brain - it will sort you out!
These days are spent planning absolutely nothing. This has been going on for a few weeks now. Also doing nothing apart from daily rutines. Like most artists I too fall into these slumps, or sometimes I feel pushed. That's not the issue here. The first couple of times I was convinced that they were the end of my creativeness. For days and weeks I'd sit with my face hidden behind my hands in disgrace of having lost the 'ability'.
Now a days I'm comfortable while they last. I relax and let go, in stead of pressuring myself into working in the studio - when nothing comes from it. This has given me time to do a bit of Christmas baking, making a few hearts from self-hardening clay to decorate the windows with and catching up with friends from near and far. There are quite a few blogs and forums out there on the topic, which I suppose will calm down the majority of struggling in-slumps. I luckily found that I practice more than one of the suggestions on some of the lists giving advice to painters stuck. So today I tidied up the studio, cleaned brushes, sorted colors and even cleaned a bit.
It becomes a ritual to enjoy the simpleness of doing nothing - deciding to not get stressed by the situation - instead chilling out knowing that one day the inspiration will return. The urge to do something all the time derives from our upbringing and culture - don't just sit there, do something! Breathe. Simply remember to breathe.